Thread:Teh Sweggurboi/@comment-26182781-20171203101837/@comment-26272757-20180104161949

I had the plan today to go to a meeting with friends, but my mental state won't let me, so I might stay home and have time for a chat. However, chatting is still very bad for my health, so maybe we have to take little breaks every half hour. Even if you don't want to talk about Phil's decision, I admit that I have some words for it.

@Dan I was thinking to withhold myself from responding as that was what you advised us to do, but now realizing that I have done someone so much harm, I can't do else than to do it anyway. I think you are high-sensitive. That's not a bad thing! I am too. But for you it shows by being upset quickly, I am upset too, but express it by coming up with the biggest rant I can think of. I'm temperamental, so it's best for me if I take a deep breath and think about it for a minute, before I click the respond button. My response to you having had a relatively bad 2017, you know, the shit you have to go through with your dad and your everything but flawless Wiki career, if I may put it that way, was sincere. Normally I would pick this up as a message: Hey! He's having a rough time, let's be nicer to him to make him feel better. But I was in my unstable mental state, which means that I say things I don't entirely mean. You know, when it's over, I have to do "repair work" as I call it, saying I'm sorry to the people I offended when I was in my state in which I barely have control over myself. So that's what I do now: apologizing. The meanest things I ever said to you were because of this and it makes me sad that I made you feel so bad. It's not entirely my fault, but still. We have tried it so many times with you here on our Wiki so I would have asked you to stay, but actually if we failed so many times, I don't have a reason to think that we can stay friendly to each other this time. So. Goodbye and I still hope that 2018 brings good to you.